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I really need to stop this negativity, man.
It's dragging me down and I hate that. And the worst thing is that it all roots in my damn insecurities.
I do notice when people do something for me, simply to try and cheer me up and it -does- cheer me up, but there's just a little voice inside saying 'they're only doing it to avoid conflict', which is complete bullshit, because people aren't like that.
I'm the first to boost someone's ego, if I think they're amazing, but when other people do it, it annoys me.
Weird, huh?
The last few days, my positive attitude has crumbled and I've actually unleashed my inner bitch a few times, which I don't like all that much.
I mean, yeah, it's fun in the situation and it's not that I regret what I do/say, but I just realize that it's really not worth it and that I'm really not a nice person, when the mood strikes.
I guess, I just have to go back and visit Sam's blog again, because that woman is seriously inspiring and I wish I could be even half as good as she is.
Okay, yeah, she's a bit of a flake and I'm not really into the whole healing-thing, but she's got a positive outlook on life and I love that.
It's so weird how I didn't like her, at all, while she was married to Chester, but after she's been on Twitter, I guess she's just shown a little bit of herself, which we didn't get to see while they were married and she's actually an awesome person.
Unlike Talinda, I feel like Sam is real. Like what she says, she actually means, because she really doesn't have to keep up appearances in any way. People can take it or leave it, whereas (and this is my own personal thoughts that may not have a place in the real world, I might add) Talinda still has Chester's 'image' to think of.
I can't explain what it is, but to me, Talinda seems fake and shallow, whereas Sam seems honest and like she doesn't care what people think of her.
Ah well, this wasn't supposed to be about Sam and Talinda.

I gotta get my positivity back and soon. I shouldn't let little things get to me and I should be happy when other people get praise, especially because I know they deserve it.
So...Dear Negativity, please get out of my life. I don't need you. You're bad for me and I will work on making it so there's no room for you, in my life. Sincerely, Mickey.

Ranting.

So I had a talk with Bekka, yesterday. About Phoenix being on Twitter and all.
Seriously, the man is a jerk. He's just plain rude and obnoxious and he actually pisses me off.
I get that he's sarcastic a lot and normally I love sarcasm and use it a lot, myself, but there's a difference between making a sarcastic joke and just being sarcastic, because you can.
I cannot remember I've seen Dave tweet one single positive thing. Every single time, he's either bitching about Kanye West (okay, I haven't seen the VMAs, so I don't know what Kanye did) or he's making sarcastic comments to fans who ask him questions or comment on his tweets and it's pissing me off.
I'm not saying he should have his tongue up our asses and I know that some fans are just downright fucking annoying, but come on. We -are-, after all, the people who buy your damn records, which means we're basically paying for your house, car and whatnot, so the least you could do was have just a tiny bit of respect and at least be nice to people.
I'm surprised, actually. I always figured that Joe was the asshole of the band, but it turns out that Phoenix is right up there with him.
And now for Chester. Seriously, that man never seizes to make me drop my jaw.
Talinda posted a picture of him getting yet another tattoo and stated that the next one will be a portrait of her.
I mean....seriously?!
Let me start by saying that I love Chester. I love his talent for music, I love his voice and I love his looks, but goddamn, he's a fucking moron and completely naive, man.
I seriously wanna slap him over the head. I don't care that he's been married to Talinda for 4 years now. You -do not- get portraits tattooed on your body. Okay, I could go with it, if he said that he was getting his kids done or something, but his wife? Please.
I mean, he doesn't exactly have a good track-record when it comes to women, does he? Sam has clearly stated that he cheated on her, back in the day and he married Talinda like the day after his divorce from Sam was over (exaggeration clarifies things, right?).
In my opinion, he clearly cheated on Sam with Talinda and I'm sorry...but even though I love him, I'm convinced that he won't stay married to Talinda. I predict that within 10 years, they'll be divorced.
Not because I want bad things for Chester, because I'd be happy if he proved me wrong. I just think that he's so easily bored that he'll eventually (if he isn't already) cheat on Talinda and I also want to vomit with all their showing-the-world-how-very-much-in-love-we-are. I'm just saying that if they were completely secure in their relationship, they wouldn't have the need to show the world, like they do.
Look at Mike and Anna. Much more mature and calm and they don't have the need to be on Twitter, displaying their relationship.
Anyway, it just feels fake to me and I can't even believe that Talinda agreed to let him have a portrait of her, permanently inked on his body.
I would never allow something like that, because no one can predict the future and it's just moronic and very naive.
I swear, he acts like a fucking 15 year old with a damn crush, man.
Not to mention my own selfish reason, which is that I won't enjoy him shirtless, if I have to look at Talinda's face, every time he takes his shirt off.
And no, let me clarify, it has nothing to do with jealousy because even if I find him hot, I wouldn't want anything to do with him. Chances are that I'd want to knock his lights out within the first hour of talking to him.
But yeah: getting your wife's face inked on your body, is just moronic, Chester. Sorry, but it is.

And that concludes my ranting for today.