I feel nauseated because I ate too much chocolate. So that kinda sucks.
I also feel extremely insecure, right now. Which I really, really don't like. I know, I'll feel better in the morning, but it just sucks to feel like this.
I feel completely inadequate, unimportant, left out and like I'll never mean that much and it's frustrating me to no end, if I'm honest.
It's irrational and a fear of not being enough and I know I should not be feeding this fear, but it's just so difficult when it hurts so much and brings out every tiny insecurity, I've ever felt.
I mean, why choose me when there's clearly someone so much better out there? Someone, who's more alike, who understands better?
God, it hurts so much.
Looking at this with my new positivity, it's a good thing that it hurts, isn't it? I mean, as irrational as it might be, it's good thing that I can even feel hurt, right?
And if you wanna feel things, you gotta be able to feel the bad, as well, even though they really, really suck.
And no, I should not talk about this, because it's so irrational and unfair, not to mention that I have no right to actually feel this, if I'm completely honest.
My good thing today was having a shift with Illona and then feeling amazing, when I got home. Another good thing was the whole LP Mafia thing, which is really making me feel good.
It really takes so little, doesn't it?
I shall go to bed so I can stop feeding this fear, already.
why choose me when there's clearly someone so much better out there?
SvarSletNobody is 'better' we're all just different and that's what makes us special. A LOT of ppl asked me, why did I choose my ex-boyfriend when he wasn't attractive nor did he had that sparkling personality... well, I just liked him, and he was my everything, even though everyone thought there could be a 'better' one out there. So, if someone chooses you, then... don't doubt about how special you can be or how good you are, you mean something to that person and that says a LOT :D
I feel completely inadequate, unimportant, left out and like I'll never mean that much and it's frustrating me to no end
We're ALWAYS the last to know when we mean something to someone. I thought my said ex-boyfriend didn't love me until I saw him crying his heart out for me. Like he didn't really have a clue of how important he was to me... so you might not feel it like that, but you probably mean the world to someone :)
And you're not unimportant, at least for me you are 'cause even though we're only internet friends, you are really a nice person that I'd love to meet one day :)