Sometimes, I wish I could turn off my emotions, man.

It might be because it's that time of month, I don't know, but I'm feeling a lot these days. Just had a.... thing.. with Nat the other day, which I feel bad for now because.... well, because I'm sick of being such a dramaqueen.

When it comes down to it.... I really don't think I have anything to complain about. There are things that I wish for, yes... but I have a pretty good life, if I think about it.

So why am I feeling so.... discontent, all the time? Sometimes, it's like my negativity is trying to fucking kill me or something.

I mean...I have a pretty good job, with great colleagues... yet, I wonder if I should switch to driving out in town, instead....or if maybe I should find a job where I can work from noon til 8 or something....always trying to think of something better.

I've chosen to be single.... yet, I long for that special someone to hold me tight...and I long for him/her like...constantly, non-stop and all the time..... wondering if Nat could be that someone.

We talked about it, before and I don't think any of us think that that would be realistic.... which actually makes me sad because she's an awesome person and I'd be honored to have someone like her.

I don't know. Maybe, I should just hide somewhere until my period's over or something. I think my hormones are working overtime or something.