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I really need to stop this negativity, man.
It's dragging me down and I hate that. And the worst thing is that it all roots in my damn insecurities.
I do notice when people do something for me, simply to try and cheer me up and it -does- cheer me up, but there's just a little voice inside saying 'they're only doing it to avoid conflict', which is complete bullshit, because people aren't like that.
I'm the first to boost someone's ego, if I think they're amazing, but when other people do it, it annoys me.
Weird, huh?
The last few days, my positive attitude has crumbled and I've actually unleashed my inner bitch a few times, which I don't like all that much.
I mean, yeah, it's fun in the situation and it's not that I regret what I do/say, but I just realize that it's really not worth it and that I'm really not a nice person, when the mood strikes.
I guess, I just have to go back and visit Sam's blog again, because that woman is seriously inspiring and I wish I could be even half as good as she is.
Okay, yeah, she's a bit of a flake and I'm not really into the whole healing-thing, but she's got a positive outlook on life and I love that.
It's so weird how I didn't like her, at all, while she was married to Chester, but after she's been on Twitter, I guess she's just shown a little bit of herself, which we didn't get to see while they were married and she's actually an awesome person.
Unlike Talinda, I feel like Sam is real. Like what she says, she actually means, because she really doesn't have to keep up appearances in any way. People can take it or leave it, whereas (and this is my own personal thoughts that may not have a place in the real world, I might add) Talinda still has Chester's 'image' to think of.
I can't explain what it is, but to me, Talinda seems fake and shallow, whereas Sam seems honest and like she doesn't care what people think of her.
Ah well, this wasn't supposed to be about Sam and Talinda.

I gotta get my positivity back and soon. I shouldn't let little things get to me and I should be happy when other people get praise, especially because I know they deserve it.
So...Dear Negativity, please get out of my life. I don't need you. You're bad for me and I will work on making it so there's no room for you, in my life. Sincerely, Mickey.