Various thoughts.

So I think I kind of lost my way with my new attitude, the last few days and it's very annoying.
I know, I've had this attitude for 33 years and I can't change it over night, just like my best friend can't just start throwing the truth in my face, over night, because it's simply not something she's been used to for a long time.

*pause*
And that sounds like my best friend's a liar who's incapable of telling the truth. That is not true!
By 'the truth', I simply mean that I've broken her trust in a way and it'll take some time to get that back and have her tell me when I'm being annoying or paranoid or whatever, not to mention having her tell me random facts about her life.
I do hope to get it back, though.

I did get some of that today, though and it made me smile. It was pretty much her venting about something that bothered her, but it made me feel honored that she chose me to vent to, especially because I've been such a bitch with other things. I just hope that I handled it better than I have before. That my reaction wasn't one that would make her not tell me things, again. Truth is... I care. Too much, sometimes and I get overly excited or angry at her behalf and my reactions are... well, intense for lack of a better term.

Lately, I've been oversensitive and even though one of my other friends says that I should just bring it up and talk about it, it's very difficult for me to do that, which is why I put it in here.
And yes, I realize that people might want to slap me across the face for talking about stuff that involves them, in here and they should, if they feel like it. But I used to censor myself on LJ and I refuse to do that, on here.
I try very hard not to mention any names, in certain cases, just so I won't show the world, who I'm talking about, but I need to let things out and often, it's just a matter of getting my thoughts out of my head and it's pretty much over.
Now, if you find that I talk about you.... or you think that I talk about you, here, feel free to confront me about it in one way or another, if you feel like we need to talk about things.

There, needed to get that out.

Now my good thing today was buying three pairs of new shoes, with tiny heels on them.... like 2-3cm.
I'm 33 years old and I've tried wearing heels before, but obviously I've chosen them too high, when I wasn't used to walking in heels, so this is my attempt to get used to wearing heels and maybe I'll be able to wear 5 or 6cm, at some point.
So yeah, gonna wrap my feet and toes up in band-aids and walk in these shoes until they stop hurting my feet, lol.