Ramblings.

- Exercise (zumba and whatnot).
- Pride Parade on Saturday (21st).
- Meeting Nick for coffee on Sunday and maybe go to dinner at his place or something, some other day.
- Help my mom with weeds in the garden (because I just promised her a few minutes ago, lol).
- Finally finish organizing my bedroom and living room and clean them.
- Maybe have Nick for a visit.

It's almost time to go back to work. I go back on Wednesday.
I've exercised as I wanted to and I had the BEST time during Pride Parade! Kirsten and I walked with the Parade from start to finish - 3½ hours of walking and dancing and I ended up pretty drunk by the time we went home but I had an awesome time and I'm doing it again next year, that's for sure.
I didn't meet Nick for coffee because I got drunk at the parade, but then I told him that I couldn't imaging sleeping with him and he didn't want to keep dating me, then.
That's alright with me. Even if I think he could've been good for me, I think he would've had to be as a friend because I just wasn't attracted to him like that.
Yeah, he was sweet and whatnot, but also very, very curious about my economy and whatnot and that made me a bit paranoid, plus the fact that I just couldn't imagine having sex with him.
I'm not completely done with my bedroom and living room, but I'm getting there, lol. I'm so lazy.

It's about time for me to go back to work, though. I'm starting to feel slightly depressed-y and I'm extremely over sensitive and I get so easily hurt if my girl doesn't say what I expect her or reply right away or something and it's just very unfair.
I've just had a few days where I've felt extremely unloved, sad and pathetic and the fact that she's slightly pms-y and whatnot doesn't exactly help the situation.
So yeah...I need to go back to work.

Oh yeah and I saw the video for The Catalyst...and it made me like the song a bit more.
Seriously, the video is AWESOME and so beautiful and I'm a little bit obsessed with it, though I really don't want to be.
Yes, that's completely lame and very childish but it just annoys me a little bit that the song, I found to be seriously annoying, repetitive and so beneath my boys' talents, started growing on me, the second that I saw Mr. Hahn's (whom I really don't like as a person..the person we know, anyway) video for it. I guess that only says good things about Joe because he really is a good director..but yeah.
I still think the lyrics are repetitive and annoying, but they seem so much more bearable when I watch the video and I don't know if it's the song growing on me or if it's because of Mike and Chester's insane hotness, because let me tell you....THEY ARE FUCKING HOT!!!!!
Yeah, I don't care about the rest of the band's participation in the video (s), but those two are fucking hot.

The Catalyst.

Linkin Park's new single, The Catalyst, was released on Monday. Well, make that Monday night, here.
I was so excited, finally feeling that old LP excitement and love. Until I heard the song.

Now, everything is a matter of taste and just to prevent people from screaming at me in the comments, saying that I'm dissing LP and whatever else kind of bullshit, so called 'real' fans can come up with, I'm gonna say that the following is MY opinion of the song.

I find The Catalyst to be the worst LP song, I've ever heard...well, I guess it's right there with Reanimation, Wake and Session (no, I didn't like those either, because contrary to popular belief, I don't have to like every fucking thing that Linkin Park does, to call myself a fan.).
I don't like electronic music and this is very much electronic, borderline techno, if you ask me and I just think it's horrible.
I think the music drowns out Mike and Chester's voice, that sound weird, anyway but that might just be how it's sampled or whatever and I find the lyrics to be repetitive and very annoying.
I won't say that I was disappointed in The Catalyst because I honestly didn't really have any expectations, but I just really don't like it.
Now, I have pre-ordered the album A Thousand Suns and I'm really hoping that the rest of the songs will be something that I can stand listening to.
If not, I'm gonna have to break up with the current Linkin Park, for the time being.

I'm not one of those fanatic fans, who thinks that I should just worship anything and everything the band and each of its members do, but I have had my share of panic attacks about not feeling excited about the album.
Not anymore, though. I've grown up in the past two years and I'm not the same obsessive-must-travel-to-Germany-to-see-LP-live kinda girl, anymore.
I'm not going to their show, here, either. I just can't be bothered to travel to the other side of the (TINY!!) country, to see them.
I may not like this album, but if they decide to make another, maybe I'll like that one and if not...I'm pretty damn sure that the world won't swallow me whole.
It took me a while to warm up to Fort Minor and there are still some songs that I think are lame and horrible. Same goes with DBS, though that type of music is probably more in my area than Fort Minor ever was.
My point is this...I've been a hardcore fan of Linkin Park's since 2002 or something like that, I have 3 tattoos with their songs and I have practically every CD and DVD (aside from Reanimation which I sent to Singapore), they've ever made.
I consider myself a lifetime fan of their three first albums, no matter what I think of this one and I'll be forever branded as theirs, no matter what happens, lol.

Respect to the guys for making something so different with The Catalyst. I don't find it to be genius and I prefer not to be subjected to it, but I still respect the boys for making it.

Grace.

I got Edward Kowalczyk's first solo album, today. He was the lead singer of my other favorite band Live and after they broke up he, of course, had to go solo and let me tell you; it's the Ed I've come to know and love through his time in Live.
I've only listened to the album a couple of times, but I'm completely in love with 'Grace', which is also the first single from the album 'Alive'.

I'm gonna post the video, which is amazing! And then I'm gonna post the lyrics, just so those of you who care enough to read them, can see what an amazing lyricist Ed really is.
I think he touches something inside of me...something more spiritual than what I normally let people see. He's a very spiritual, almost religious guy and his songs are the same, even though they're anything but boring as some religious songs can be.

Anyway, enough of me rambling, here's the video:




And the lyrics:

Spend a little time standin' on the front lines
And you really can't talk at all
Your mind begins to wonder
Is there any love at all?

The photographs you took
Yeah, there was somethin' in their eyes
Every saint used to be a sinner
Every man used to be a child
You said it was all inside my mind

You were wrong
There was grace
You saw the enemy
I saw your face
People like you and I
Spinnin' through space
You were wrong
I still have faith

Everytime I feel the sunshine
I thank the lord up above
For seein' somethin' I
Couldn't see at all
Comin' down hard
The feelin's all gone
Where are we gonna hide?
My wings are feelin' clipped now
And all I wanna do is fly

Somethin's gotta give
Get up, stand up, see through it
Gotta get this message to you
You said life don't mean a thing
That there's no reason left to dream.